How is it possible that when there are only two empty seats in a classroom they happen to be on either side of me (First step to improvement is to be brave and sit directly next to someone) -- while it is still possible for there to be a million open seats on an airplane flight and the old men assuredly choose me as a row partner?
How is it possible that in my Child development class everyone seems to be first conversation chatting while I sit in silence with a subtle smile. They can't all be initiating?
How do I even have friends?
Once upon a time I was both an initiator and a snatcher. Off the top of my head I can think of three examples-- Juli Stewart, Sarai Trueblood, and Jenni Boyle. They were "new" at some point in my life/city and I made no hesitation to snatch them up. It is quite possible that in my current position in the salty city I do not feel established or comfortable enough to be a snatcher.
On the other hand, place me at the Gap and I will introduce myself to every new employee with the confidence and zeal of a very experienced socialite. New ones are the key. New ones that aren't established and I am their first hope for a friend.
I never thought I would feel so distressed about leaving my book at work.