miércoles, 14 de enero de 2009

Thoughts of a living introvert.

How is it possible that when there are only two empty seats in a classroom they happen to be on either side of me (First step to improvement is to be brave and sit directly next to someone) -- while it is still possible for there to be a million open seats on an airplane flight and the old men assuredly choose me as a row partner?

How is it possible that in my Child development class everyone seems to be first conversation chatting while I sit in silence with a subtle smile. They can't all be initiating?

How do I even have friends?
Once upon a time I was both an initiator and a snatcher. Off the top of my head I can think of three examples-- Juli Stewart, Sarai Trueblood, and Jenni Boyle. They were "new" at some point in my life/city and I made no hesitation to snatch them up. It is quite possible that in my current position in the salty city I do not feel established or comfortable enough to be a snatcher.

On the other hand, place me at the Gap and I will introduce myself to every new employee with the confidence and zeal of a very experienced socialite. New ones are the key. New ones that aren't established and I am their first hope for a friend.

I never thought I would feel so distressed about leaving my book at work.

8 comentarios:

emily dijo...

don't take it personally...you are there to learn, others are there to find husbands...and the Gap is totally awesome (when I'm there of course)

The Melkman dijo...

That's me in Elder's quorum. I sit alone quietly, while the rest make home teaching jokes or talk about the Jazz last night. Undergraduate classes I was like that as well. I always had empty seats around me. I think I must put off an uninviting vibe. At work I always seem to do fine making jokes and meeting people, but church is always tougher.

Hayee dijo...

hmmm i do wonder if I have that uninviting vibe. it must be so.

Anna dijo...

thats what that is..dont worry i have it too. no one sits by me ever, unless i already know them..oh goodness that vibe must run in the Dalton family.

Hayee dijo...

but we are so friendly! ba ha.

Melon dijo...

You can be or do what you want. It is up to you, the vibe is confidence, and if you don't initiate, the vibe is you don't want contact or don't care to interact in that environment. You get to choose!

Hayee dijo...

I initiated today. Oh i got such a high!

Elaine dijo...

Oh gosh, I feel like that too at the U. It's harder to make friends here than it was at BYUI I think. But at least you know me on campus! and Chase if you ever see him :) But I know what you mean... BTW are you taking the psychology infant and child development class? who is your teacher?